Jan 27, 2003

A co-tanod is pm'ing me.
I wonder why. Bakit nga kaya?
I watch Mel and Jay before I go to the mass.
the astrologer says that this is a lucky year for me too.. swerte daw ako sa lovelife ngayon.
I've been praying so much na bumalik na siya sa akin.
I keep on asking God why did it happen to us.
Why is it so easy for him to let me go.
Mas importante nga ba sa kanya ang career nya or may iba na siya?
Why do we have to do "it" kung meron na siyang iba.
Hay! I feel miserable.
I should not be doing that. I know that i was making love.. but for him, I know it's only a sex thing.
hay! why does we have to end this way.
Watch movie awhile ago.. Hot Chick. Nakakatawa talaga.
Hay! I feel like crying again. Kanina pa!
If we both watch that movie, siguro yung tawa naming 2 ang pinakamalakas sa loob ng sinehan.
I really miss him but I have to forget him.
Tama na talaga tong pagmamahal na to.

I talk to mama kanina. I told her na bigyan na ako ng sweldo.
As in super kapal na nga ng mukha ko but I have too.
I've been working for 3 fucking long years and I haven't receive any salary.
As in purdoy na talaga ako.
I get 3T bucks kanina.. 2T for Xenical, 1 T for my eyeglass.
Thanks God. May eyeglass na ako but 1,500 bucks ang pagawa ko.
So, she still owes me 500. hehehe!!
I really need the money coz I want to buy a new vcd player.
My old vcd player broke down when I brought it to Bicol.
Hay! I miss watching movies in my room.

Jan 26, 2003

Got to work.
I don't have money anymore.
Got no resource too.

I feel like I don't have a career.
Kung wala pa ding progress.
I have a plan to go to Belgium or US next year.

I should be thinking about myself now.
Enough for them.
I have to be successful on my own.
I gotta have a new life now that he's gone.
I've been missing him so much.
I wish he will come back to me.
I'll be waiting til April. Pag di kami nagkabalikan. I guess, I have to move on.
Hay! I'm thinking about him again.

I should have call him but eto na naman ang pride ko. I really want to forget him and maybe what I am doing is right for us.
Do you still love me bullit?
I have always been loving you but that love can't change my hatred.
I hate you and your friends.
you deceived me.