Aug 21, 2005

Oh yeah.. I'm bored

Wala kong magawa dito sa shop... It's sunday today kaya medyo konti ang customer. Ka-bored.. narereminisce ako.. naiisip ko na naman si Bullit. Hayz.. ano pa ba. Why do I keep on hanging on to someone na alam kong wala ng patutunguhan. I feel pathetic. I really enjoy his company.

We went out yesterday, nagpagawa kami ng celfone sa Greenhils tapos manonood sana kami ng sine kaso di natuloy kasi di na puede sa sched namin yung showing time. So, nagstroll na lang kami sa Cubao. Nung pauwi na kami, malapit sa kanila may manhole na alang takip.. He warned me na may butas.. sabi ko nakita ko.. ang ganda pa ng sagot ko "yes yes yo" pa.. Pero nahulog pa din kami. Napagalitan ako ni panget pero bago siya bumaba.. tinawanan na lang namin yung nangyari... as in we both laugh hard.. hanggang di kami makahinga.. Nira-rap pa nya yung pagkakahulog namin sa manhole.

"Yo.. yes yes yo!
nakita ko yung butas yo!
nahulog pa din ako yo!"

Narealize ko, ang tagal ko palang di nakatawa ng sobra, na parang kala mo bawal ng tumawa bukas.

After ng tawanan.. balik ako sa dati. Malungkot.. nag iisip.. Hanggang kelan to? Para kasing kahati ng buhay ko si Bullit. Parang hindi kumpleto pag wala na siya. I know may bago na naman siyang "apple of the eye." Although masakit pero sanay na ko. Naiisip ko.. pag nagsawa siya don, babalik din siya.

2 months ago, nachallenge siya nung bumalik si Perci. For almost 2 months, dito siya natutulog sa bahay. Hindi ako iniiwan. Last month, sinabi nya mahal pa din nya ako. He talked about marriage.. yung mga doubts nya pati frustrations. Sanay na ko sa ganong tagpo.. Hindi ako masyadong umasa. I was there at his side as a friend.. who understands, love, and accepts him for being human. I feel complete with the thoughts that he's here with me.. I've been longing for that moment to happen... again. I love him ... kahit ganyan siya.

I remember last month, we're about to watch a movie. While falling in line, he kissed me at my forehead. It was a simple kiss, pero randam ko yung pagmamahal nya. I want to reciprocate it but I'm too overwhelmed with the love I am feeling at that moment.
It was a lovely day.. Hindi ko makakalimutan yung araw na yon.

Oh my God.. I'm too emotional again.

I was browsing the internet awhile ago.. nakita ko tong romantic compatibility sa yahoo.com.
So.. di na ko nagtataka ngayon kung bakit ako ganito.

Pisces & Cancer
A love match between a Cancer and a Pisces is a positive meeting of spirits. Both signs are basically tolerant and sympathetic, and Pisces is easily energized by Cancer's ideas. A Pisces mate can open a Cancer's eyes to the world of creativity and spirituality. In turn, Cancer's practicality can be a guide, leading Pisces to the fruition of their dreamy, utopian ideas. This celestial pairing benefits from an amazingly strong and multifaceted emotional bond.
Cancer loves material goods, they admire and they appreciate. Cancer desires comfort and a rich home, and at times might not understand the simplistic, minimalist lifestyle of their Pisces mate. Though they may work toward different goals of acquisition and lifestyle, the shared emotional depth of Cancer and Pisces can make theirs a very rewarding relationship.

The Moon (Emotion) rules Cancer, and Jupiter (Philosophy) and Neptune (Illusion and Dreams) rules Pisces. When the Moon and Neptune come together, a beautiful spiritual connection is made. Both of these celestial bodies vibrate with warm, feminine energy. Together, they create an idealistic, almost divine relationship, one that puts much significance on dreams and illusions. Jupiter also rules Pisces. This Planet of Good Fortune adds a masculine energy to this planetary combination, representing philosophy, expansion and excesses. The nature of this combination offers a utopian relationship: It is drenched in emotional intrigue and is a true celestial bond. Emotion, depth, warmth, expansion -- it all sounds too good to be true, doesn't it. Though they both ask a lot of their love relationships, Cancer must be careful not to cramp the floating Fish, as Pisces will suffocate under too many demands.

Cancer and Pisces are both Water Signs. Since Water is a tangible, physical entity, Cancer and Pisces are generally very compatible. Pisces are in this world to create human connections, and when they come together with Cancerian intuition and nurturing, there is no stronger bond. So that this union does not wash out in a stream of romantic idealism, Cancer's stable view of life holds them afloat. And it's not a case of Cancer putting up with a dreamy Pisces mate: Cancer really understands emotional ambiguity and can help Pisces stabilize their ephemeral nature. Though Cancer could grow weary of their Pisces mate's faraway nature, and though Pisces could be bothered by Cancer's self-centeredness, it's easy for this pair to find a compromise.
Cancer is a Cardinal Sign, and Pisces is a Mutable Sign. Though intuitive, in love, as in life, Cancer likes to get things moving with a good idea and a solid plan, and they'll write it all down to keep track. Pisces, on the other hand, is more about going on instinct; they'd lose that plan as soon as Cancer handed it to them! Cancer needs to give Pisces the freedom to enjoy their external interests and to occasionally follow a whim undeterred. Pisces can show Cancer that completion is sometimes better than initiation, and that compromise without struggle can pay off. Cancer and Pisces feed off of each other's energy well, and should be completely compatible in romance.

What's the best thing about the Cancer-Pisces love match? Their similar emotional natures. Both have a great capacity for emotion and compassion, and both can act as teacher AND student. They complement and harmonize with one another very well. The overall empathy and commitment that these two Signs value in a relationship is what will keep the ties strong and long lasting between the Crab and the Fish.

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